Grief

I don't know where to begin this blog but il write as much as I can without bursting into tears. To lose someone you love is the most painful feeling anyone could go through, it's like being punched in your stomach over and over again. This past Friday we got some devastating news that our cousin had mysteriously died and no one knows what happend to him. How can you be with someone then the next minute he is gone just like that. 

It still hadn't hit me yet that I will have to spend the rest of my life with this person who was so full of love and life. Iv never in my life met a person who is so selfless and I don't say this because he is gone but it is the truth. I always admired how he was sometimes I didn't understand how one person could be so positive. 

I wish I could cry as much as one would be expected to bit I'm just in a state of shock there is no way my T-man is gone. I can't imagine being back in Botswana and not able to see him or talk to him. There is always a part of you that dies a little when you lose a loved one you question why you are living anyway but I guess it's normal to feel that way. In time we get to understand that God's plans are beyond our imaginations. 

Death has a way of making one question their own mortality, my cousin has taught me that if you are not happy in anything you are in whether a job, a relationship or whatever it is then leave and go do what makes you happy. Life is too short to be stuck in a place of unhappiness. Il be very cliche and end YOLO live your best life cos you never know when you'll go. 

PS: One of the most devastating things is to live so far from home and you can't say goodbye to your loved ones😢

RIP T-man I love you to the heavens and beyond❤️😢