Random pics of my life lately

Reunited with bae and it feels so good😍

Lately

I wore this outfit on Sunday and I adore it, my top and denim jacket(in my hand) are from H&M : skirt Forever21 and my bag is from winners 

I really love this mustard top from H&M 

This coulor is called indicisive I think I'm too lazy to go check but I really like it 

Oh so this literally just happend and I had to edit this blog... My real techniques came in just now and I am so excited... Now I am not a makeup person but graduation is coming up and I want to have all the tools to make me look nice.. 

 They came in this package though 

Late night blogging

So cool that I can stay up this late because tomorrow is Labor Day and no work for me.. Yes I got a part time job and I'm so grateful. 

I guess this should be an update blog because I haven't written in a while. Well apart from a new job I have come up with a perfect way to keep my body in check, green tea yes people green tea as is no sweetners nothing. It's a miracle I feel fantastic, ofcourse I still do my squats and I got an ab toning wheel they work wonders for my body. 

Also il be going home soon for graduation yay, can't wait to see my friends my family and my hubby. I'm so blessed to be with someone who is patient and understanding enough to support the journey I am on. 

I really have nothin significant to talk about just wanted to chat about random nothings because that's what I like😄... It's funny how much you appreciate all the freet time you had before a job or school happend, I feel like I'm missing out on my favorite tv shows and stuff but thank God for pvr and my brother for recording stuff for me while I'm at work. 

Anyways I think il end this blog it's been a lot of blah blah but what can you do. Hahaha....xo

My life lately

Oh where to start, I have missed blogging so much haven't been busy with much but I have been pre occupied so I thought I'd round up what's been happening lately in pictures. Summer is over 😢I am bummed but grateful for a new season. 

Dear summer, I will miss you. You brought challenges and so much joy to me and my family and I thank you for yet new lessons. New season new chapter😃

Positive vibes

I have been feeling extra positive lately, not that I wasn't before but sometimes life gives you AHA moments ( as Oprah calls it) that you see life in a more precious light. Thank God for the wisdom of the people I know, this week I spoke to my former lecture on the phone and I was complaining about how I'm not getting a job and how difficult life is. All he said is if you have a bible go read the book of Job. 

I did and just like that my definition of patience changed. Patience does not only mean to wait it's also what you do when you are waiting on God's timing for you. Despite the bad things Job went through not once did he lose his faith in God. 

The moral of this story is that never again will I complain about my lack of things iv been blessed in so many ways and whatever is not happening now will not shake my faith or make me question God. I have a huge smile as I type this because I realize the joy of accepting what you have been given in the moment. Life is indeed beautiful, all the pain the suffering we may go through will lead to the brightest doors opening up. 

Be good to yourself and share the positive vibes with those around you. 

XO

What's new?

Life has been rough lately but when you have have faith nothing can bring you down. Anyway I have really been researching about cleansing my body, I need to shed a few kilos. I have developed that little fat by the bra line so that's a bummer. I also bought this women's health exercise kit from the thrift store and man was I dissapointed 90%of the items that were supposed to be in the box were missing (no guarantees in these thrift store stuff I still love it though nothing beats a good bargain).

I haven't started using the kit yet because I got it Friday and I want to start it same time I start my cleanse on Monday. Plus exercise is not that fun for me I really wish to be one of those people who are really into working out they inspire me, their dedication is amazing. Iv heard that when you start seeing the results you are in, i plan on starting gym full time next year when I get back from Botswana. 

My cousin was buried today, I was sobbing all day today because I want there to say goodbye and the reality that he really is gone just hit me hard. On a positive note I really do believe that God loves my family so much that he had blessed us with such an amazing person, we will carry him in our hearts and memories until we meet again. 

On a lighter subject I have been very fascinated with makeup and I blame YouTube videos. Those women are gorgeous and they sure know what they are doing. I have been collecting some make up because I want to look cute for graduation, however I still haven't gotten the guts to apply it on all I do is the basic mascara and eyeliner. 

Oh I got this eyeshadow, blush and bronzed pallet by elf from winners for a great deal yesterday😊. Can't wait to try it

 

Grief

I don't know where to begin this blog but il write as much as I can without bursting into tears. To lose someone you love is the most painful feeling anyone could go through, it's like being punched in your stomach over and over again. This past Friday we got some devastating news that our cousin had mysteriously died and no one knows what happend to him. How can you be with someone then the next minute he is gone just like that. 

It still hadn't hit me yet that I will have to spend the rest of my life with this person who was so full of love and life. Iv never in my life met a person who is so selfless and I don't say this because he is gone but it is the truth. I always admired how he was sometimes I didn't understand how one person could be so positive. 

I wish I could cry as much as one would be expected to bit I'm just in a state of shock there is no way my T-man is gone. I can't imagine being back in Botswana and not able to see him or talk to him. There is always a part of you that dies a little when you lose a loved one you question why you are living anyway but I guess it's normal to feel that way. In time we get to understand that God's plans are beyond our imaginations. 

Death has a way of making one question their own mortality, my cousin has taught me that if you are not happy in anything you are in whether a job, a relationship or whatever it is then leave and go do what makes you happy. Life is too short to be stuck in a place of unhappiness. Il be very cliche and end YOLO live your best life cos you never know when you'll go. 

PS: One of the most devastating things is to live so far from home and you can't say goodbye to your loved ones😢

RIP T-man I love you to the heavens and beyond❤️😢

Live and learn

One of the most important things I've learnt is that when you have done all you can to achieve something and it does not seem to go your way, just let go and let God take care of it. Sometimes we push too hard for the things that were never meant for us in the first place. Whatever is meant for you will be for you, God always has a bigger plan for us and we should wait on his time. 

The other thing that iv learnt is that expectations are part of life. People can criticize you for having had expectations when it comes to important people in your live. I mean when you give the best of yourself to someone you would think they would return the favour, if they don't appreciate you then it's ok to be hurt to be dissapointed in the fact that your feelings or actions were not reciprocated. 

It doesn't make you a fool it makes you human the saying do onto others as you would have them do onto you has to mean something, if I'm good to you then I deserve for you to be good to me right? 

Well that's my opinion anyway, remember everything that happens in your life should teach you how to be a better you...XO

Little bit of this and that

Oh how iv missed blogging, but it's been a little hard to find inspiration. I think lately I have been pre-occupying my mind with questions that I cannot even answer. The quest for content is one that has been tricky for me to find. I long to be in a place where 'now' is the only thing that matters because it is the only thing I have control over, i constantly have to remind myself that yesterday has gone the past should not occupy a place in my life. 

With that being said, I think being able to admit what's holding you back then you are taking a step in the right direction. We are all a work in progress and being honest with yourself about your flaws can only build you to be a better you. So today I choose to let go of things I can't control, people's thoughts of me does not make me lose sleep.

Xo..

Quality over quantity

While growing up/maturity means different things to many of us, to me it's being in line or at peace with who I am. Not trying to change who I am to please anyone nor giving people's thought about me the time of day. Now this could have many repocusions iv lost a number of friend in the process of growing into the person I am. 

Although losing friends or just people in one's life could be a problem to most to me it's perfectly fine. This is how life goes not everyone is destined to be in our journeys 

and I'd rather have few people in my life who are authentic and care about me genuinely than a bunch of people who could care less. It's always about quality over quantity with me. 

God has really blessed me to have realized what really matters at a younger age. It's not only important but it's necessary to surround yourself with great positive people, people who will not only inspire you to be the best version of you but people who will root for you and genuinely want to see you succeed. 

 

PS the number of followers or friends you have on social media should not define anyone, it's a shame to want to be validated according to followers online by people you don't even know. I am enough just the way God made only I can validate that to myself. 

Life lately

 

Skin problems

The topic is skin is one that is sensitive to me because for years I suffered from sever acne. I remember I was 13years old I had just transfered from another school and all the boys in my class would make fun of me. To be a newbie and be made fun of definatly made high school a living hell for me.

I grew up thinking I was the ugly one that no one would like me, but them I met a friend and she had same issues as me and we bonded immediately. She sure taught me how to own my imperfections to be confident no matter what bad things people may have to say. 

When I turned 18 I discoverd roaccutane from my dermatologist ohhhh man I was flawless within a week like boys would hola at me all the time(I wasn't invisible anymore😊). But I never trut anything you have to ingest. I used them for a while my skin was amazing and I was so happy. 

I stopped the medication and the nightmare began, but I was old enough to deal with it plus it wasn't as bad as before. Fast forward about two months ago I discovered the acne.org regimine and it's the holy grai of acne meds it's safe and easy to use my skin feels and looks amaze balls. I still have a few dark marks but I'm sure they will go away I hope they do. Il put a pic below of the dark spots

If anyone has a problem with acne seriously go to acne.org and order the regimine that will be the best investment you can ever make for your skin. Il admit I was very skeptical before because I had tried literally everything and nothing worked. 

With that said we should all love how God made us, we can't all be the same never mind shallow people who judge you for something you did not bring onto yourself. We are all beautiful in our own unique ways let's embrace that.

XO

 

Something new

My obsession with nail Polish is one I don't understand myself but I absolutely love them. Bought two new ones yesterday at Walmart the current favorite brand is the maybeline colorshow, not only are they cheap but they have a variety of great colours. 

Today i put on one called drops of jade I think, it's so pretty has polka dot effect.. Picture below

Il probably be talking with my hands just to flaunt it.

Oh I also took my braids off yesterday whew, they were so old that my sculp was getting irritated. Plus I kind of missed my locks, they have grown a little bit and they have become thick like I had wanted. 

The first few months I was worried I was going to have tooth picks for locks, but as my friend and lock sister( if that's a thing) said they will get better with time and they have.

Talking about hair, I am so over DIY 's I need a professional someone take me back to Botswana... 😩

Doing hair in canada is so expensive and being the frugal person I am I've decided to do it my self, from braiding to twisting. And also few people know how to do my kind of hair and I don't trust other people with my hair so it's been a challenge. 

Anywhoo enough blabbing, here is a pic of my progress

6months baby I love it😃

Mini makeover

I finally managed to give my blog a little face lift. The struggle has been real because I haven't been able to do it not that I didn't want to but I didn't know how to. I think I'm either technology challenged or I just don't make enough effort, anyway i got it done yaaas. 

That's all the blogging for today it's 1am and I have to sleep, time just slipped by because I was watching YouTube videos. I'm a junkie can't get enough of them ( round of applause to the person who created YouTube).. 

Ok enough, night...

Xo

Birthdays

Today is my sister's birthday party, her actual birthday was on the 3rd of June today it's only the party. I can't believe my lil pumpkin is 9years old(they grow up so fast 😢) . Anyway it's nothing big the plan was to to to the beach and have a lil barberque but my mom got called in at work plus the weather is not so great for the beach. 

Bummer because I bought a cute bikini I wanted to wear really bad, one day... 

The party hasn't started but iv snapped a few pics of what's happening so far. Enjoy 

My pretty forever21 floral dress, was going to get a few things from the store

Birthday girl

Hello kitty theme

Cupcakes by me, well only the topping they were made by my momma

Pickering rib fest

Fun day at the rib fest 

Amazing views

Today the family went to the beach/water park. My brother stayed home thought because his asthma had been on another level lately. Anyway the water was amazing we didn't get in because it's still a lil chilli we had thought we'd get to feed the geese but they were not there and we settled for seagles. 

There is a calming and soothing feeling I get when I am by the ocean it kind of feels like regardless of all the difficulties I might be facing, in that moment they don't exist. 

Ahh I could go back right now, my soul is happy.